Mothahhood

life in my hood with 2 teenagers, a toddler and chronic pain

Can I get a witness? June 19, 2009

Can anyone relate? C’mon I know you can. I love to cook. Or at least, I used to love to cook. I used to plan really good meals, whole dinner menus, even. And, I used to shop, go to the farmer’s market for the best, freshest, organic produce to have all the right ingredients in the house. We used to have dinner parties consisting of fabulous food, wonderful wine and witty repartee. And I did all this in a fairly small, cramped kitchen with crappy appliances. Then something happened. Or many things happened. 3 kids happened. 3 kids who don’t eat any of the same foods except pizza, burritos or macaroni and cheese.

And then something else happened. We remodeled our kitchen with beautiful countertops and stainless appliances and a prep sink and opened it up to our den, creating a “great room.”  And then pain happened. Pain that makes me tired and makes me lose my appetite. Do you know what it is like trying to plan dinner when you are tired and have no appetite or nothing just sounds good and the kids don’t like the same food and your husband could be late from work on any and every night of the week? Probably you do know. I end up throwing out more perishables than could feed a small island and we order in food enough times in a week to stimulate a small economy and I feel like a loser of a mother because I don’t have dinner, steaming in its serving bowls, on the table every (or any) evening and I hate it. And then I remember the starving children in Africa and I feel guilty for being such a spoiled, whiny bitch.

nufced

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2 Responses to “Can I get a witness?”

  1. kim Says:

    Growing up, our traditional Christmas dinner was Chinese take out- seriously. My mother didn’t have the energy to cook after her day ended. She was definitely NOT a loser mother and I seriously doubt you are.

    • mothahhood Says:

      Thanks, Kim…maybe a little too much self pity going on here…of course I wrote this at 8:00pm when still hadn’t eaten dinner–at least I did manage to feed thekids.


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